Black and Bright

Hello People.
It's grey here. I just know I am terrible. aweful cruel person.
i cannot help. i can be unmoving.

I checked. we had a visitor from russia and germany.
nice. i think.

i don't really write for an audience. but it's fine to know there are people.

Oh ! i went to london. that's a place filled with people. i don't like it.

Pious little devil

This is no travel journal. though one could argue that life is a journey.
but am i writing about life? maybe.

Hmm. what defines you? did i cover this topic last time? maybe.
i think it's the songs that you listen to.
Sweet melodies from the house of the lord himself.

i got a roomie. thank god not for long. i hope. 2 or 3 more days and am done.
i never knew people could sleep that much until i met the roomie.
am sorry i can't pinpoint. it's very hypocrite of me. but that's it. i'll feel bad.
so am kinda saving my ass.

I am a hard believer in karma. despite myself. comes from mom and studies.
she says if you studied hard then you're gonna get the results u've worked for.
and in case i fail, i don't feel bad about the outcome.
My child, it is the outcome that you should get rid of.
hence the don't care attitude.
and i still don't know where it will lead me.
yes it is a question i've been asking.

I've got a book on Einstein right now. reading it. no no don't try to understand the man.
some just come to open up secrets, as i read or heard somewhere.
and i feel just a lil more intelligent just reading bout the man himself.

yesterday night till today early morning we had the Geminid meteor shower. oh non! i didnt even try to go out. not because of the cold. but rather out of laziness.
it's not yet four, and the weather is ghastly.
i am quite courageous when my love is concerned. buckle up, face tough winds.
in the Commodore's word, i hope to display such attitude in every aspect of my life.
he's a fine man too!

these days am wondering with whom i just end up with. the man, you know. am of age now.
listen to me ahhhahahhahhahaha, laugh!! who would have thought.
yeah am the straight goner kinda person. aim for it, take it for life.

and on a much sadder note, am we just all waiting to die?
at least those who are never satisfied with what they got already.
just hoping something beyond will be better.... is it a lie? what do ye think?

at times i can't wait to get back to my country. and then i think, i didn't come to europe
just to get back home.
we've got places to go.
WHY the heck do i go into WE mode so often when talking bout myself.
am just so alone maybe.
imagining myself with someone else makes it less frightening. maybe.
as i see my people taking pictures with their friends. and here i am all alone.
it's a pity!!

but anyway... are people just so damn foolish? maybe? no. not being to able
to see the little delta changes in everything. observation is not something for everyone
i guess.

hmm... thats goonna be it now. the roomie is almost snoring. oh love! oh lord!

Start

Hello people,
this is how i start my blogs. whether there's people or not.
To start with, am in a country i never wished to stay in.
at times i love it, at times i don't. i dont hate it.
I write lines. mind you. not poems.
what defines me? i do not know. no introductions required.

and then there was the moon.

i come from a place where sunshine is worshiped, at least by me. in my heart.

what else?
i've just been suggested, once again, to find someone while it's time. am getting old it seems.
i've started with travelling away from home. i made it. it was quite a dream.
but i loved home.
but there was that need to leave. to know what lies beyond the horizon. to make
sure i wasn't inside a box. to walk on another land. and i made it. quite proud of meself.
it's raining over st.albans.

where do you live?

coming back to the fact that i desperately need to find someone (catch the sarcasm in my note),
i have quite greatly good taste. oh how do i do?
question that then arises is that.. am i worth someone really dashing and handsome. maybe i am.
do i need to look super beautiful for that?! time will tell. crush of the week is matt bomer.