Welll Welll! Well!!
Am in Berlin! Finally. hahaha
Nein Nein!
It's not sophisticated. It's not extraordinary. it's not impressive.
It's not London. It's contradictory. It's much like me.
It's like everything at the same time.
It's simple. it's colourful with its trees.
i am here since 4 days. I have loved it the moment I got into the taxi.
It's not packed. where I live, no traffic.
Lots of noise from planes and aircrafts. But it's a strange city.
Has it got a soul? Comparing with London... I have half of my heart in north of London.
The cold winds of London are mine.
Aber Berlin. Berlin ist ! Nur ist ! it's like saying I am what I am. Love me, hate me. I don't care. I am.
I have also realised that I am home everywhere. The sky is mine. Breathe in, the sun is mine. the moon is mine.
these clouds. yes mine too..
Yes yes! I have cried listening to Darren for some time this evening. My belly aches. something in my stomach. My lack of heart and feelings. or too much of it. and had to cry it out.
I am terribly afraid.
I am terribly afraid of what in fact?
That I will be alone all the time. No warm hand to hold. It feels good to hold a warm hand. ok! that should make me cry now.
For future reference: feelings are important where certain things are concerned.
I thought it's easier to go without the feelings.
Well, my child it is not. you might get into a terrible vortex of guilt and wanting something you don't have.
Yes I do feel like a little robot. Running straight ahead doing just what needs to be done.
But stop, breathe. Wonder about who painted those trees all green.
Please. Don't stop being all crazy.
It's okay to be afraid. Scared. But it's as important to deal with this peur. that thing in your stomach that doesn't let you go forward.
Connect to the lord. It's important. connect to the sky. to those birds. Look how they fly around to make you smile.
Then smile.
Your heart is whole.
Berlin! yeah back to Berlin!
I am different here. I am of different colour. Physically different.
There aren't much like me.
But smile, laugh, no shit!
sun sets at half past nine, It's not a good thing! It might be novelty! But nicht gut.
Ok talking and thinking about it I found what is wrong here!
The understatement!
