Raining over Berlin

Maybe you're a ghost you know. It's 01.21 in the morning.
early morning i went to look for Scorpio. no no i cannot find him yet.
scorpio and his twisted ways. all i know is that london is south. and
south east is where is wakes up from.
and OH! it's spring here you know. SPRING. the spring. real one.

however much i don't want to admit, i am a horrible person trying
to hide behind kindness.
but there! i am free now. to please myself. and do it in my way. my ways.
I truly do not want to know what you think about me now. no one.

I have been told twice in a day that i close my eyes to the reality of the
world. but oh! mister! shut up! who wants to see ugly things if we can see
God given spring. Spring. i am sure i haven't seen the full of all it can offer.
but surely it is beautiful . the pretty white flowers.
beautiful. i loved it before knowing what it was.
my camera is coming soon.

At least i know, at least, one person on earth doesn't want me back home. hahahh
i love him! my very own old man. not my father. i am sure he wants me to discover the
world too. but i got another old man that i call my own.
I do need to see the world. and I need to keep reminding myself of this.
Do not fall into the common. Do not conform. I cannot.
I don't remember exactly.. but Barbossa said. .. You need to get lost to find something
that cannot be found...
so let go of the steering. and trust the lord! He's the one who makes awesome plans!
you just need to keep your sleeping bag ready.

i don't know whether my philosophy of running away from people is right... but it sure is
the only way to save yourself. and blast it.


By the way, i look awesome in dresses. i cut my hair. i wear dresses with boots. or skirts with boots and a leather jacket. yes. i did it.

At times i ponder on this.. Girl! you made it! you actually made it.
Now that it got started. Let's go to Berlin.

Let them think what they want, I want to be outrageous.
I love the sun more than ever,
I sat on the green grass enjoying the warm day,
I say bad words out loud, who cares,
I don't want no one to take my hand and whisper sweet nice words,
We're done with apologies, maybe i was carved in another kinda fabric.
but i want it all now.

I wanna go to Berlin.

P.s the birds sing all night long here. dunno what's the matter with them. maybe they're happy it's spring... i would sing too if it was my time of the year. haahahahahah
i love crows, it doesn't make sense loving these horrible birds i think.
All i want is to lay on the grass and watch the pretty yellow flowers grow.
no one can hold you back. do not let them. you are a free spirit remember. and you choose your own chains. and let that be the chain that ties you to the infinite absolute. the rest! well the rest is useless!